So here I am, back in this world.
I can only seem to stay away for so long before that stretched elastic springs me backwards again.
For now I'll just roll with it. CW is unimaginable. I think like 130. I daren't weigh myself.
So my life has changed drastically and it's a lot more stress.
Craving bad.
I ate like 4 packs of candy earlier and tons of random shit and couldn't even purge. Shit.
Anyway, tell me how your life is going?
ϟ ★ Siren Skinny ★ ϟ
❝Beneath the makeup and behind the smile I am just a girl who wishes for the world.❞
― Marilyn Monroe
― Marilyn Monroe
Saturday, 10 May 2014
Monday, 2 September 2013
New weight!
Oh what a pleasant surprise when I weighed myself this morning and found out that I was 124.2 lbs (BMI: 18.3) The only problem now is that I have eaten two small squares of fudge and a milk chocolate button along with my daily calories today of 1200. :-/ so will have gained tomorrow.
Saturday, 31 August 2013
Is anybody out there?
I'm just wondering if there's anybody out there. I feel a little alienated because I've been off these sites for so long but I'm hoping there's still a friendly face or two.
So it seems I'm back. I was in self-induced recovery for a while but I keep getting drawn back. It's like a big magnet that I can't shake.
Currently weighing in at 125.8 and hoping desperately to lose more by next weekend cos I got a modelling thing. Couldn't stand it if I was the hugest one there.
Anyway, share the love and leave me a comment. Let me know what's been happening all this time?
Love always x
So it seems I'm back. I was in self-induced recovery for a while but I keep getting drawn back. It's like a big magnet that I can't shake.
Currently weighing in at 125.8 and hoping desperately to lose more by next weekend cos I got a modelling thing. Couldn't stand it if I was the hugest one there.
Anyway, share the love and leave me a comment. Let me know what's been happening all this time?
Love always x
Thursday, 27 December 2012
Eating too much but then a crazy surprise!
I don't know what's happened or who I've been switched with but since December 1st I have lost 2 lbs which mean that all through my birthday and all through Christmas and Boxing Day I have actually managed to lose some weight?? How is that even possible??!! I have eaten literally shit loads of food and chocolate etc...
Anyone have any reasons for this?
Love Sirenne xx
Anyone have any reasons for this?
Love Sirenne xx
Monday, 10 December 2012
The new me.
Sometimes I wonder what's wrong with me. Why is my brain like how it is? Why do I have OCD thoughts? Why do I feel the need to control my eating. (Whether its restricting or gorging myself.)
Not only that but I spend so much money and I'm basically skint. I just shop and spend and spend and it makes me feel better. Why can't I stop?
Tomorrow will be better, tomorrow I will be a new person.
Thank you for reading.
Sirenne x
Not only that but I spend so much money and I'm basically skint. I just shop and spend and spend and it makes me feel better. Why can't I stop?
Tomorrow will be better, tomorrow I will be a new person.
Thank you for reading.
Sirenne x
Friday, 19 October 2012
'cut-throat' with 1 month to go!
So I'm sitting here at my desk searching for new celeb thinspo. I am supposed to be working but I can't concentrate on anything. I'm so tired because I havent been sleeping well recently. I have been so intent on looking good and feeling better that I have been what I call 'cut throat' with my restricting. a prime example of this is when i'm planning on skipping food until lunch yet I eat a piece of fruit which completely throws me and I and up bingeing on really unhealthy shit. Not good. I'm at 127 i think. Thats a rough guess. I just know that I have 1 month exactly to loose like 7lbs. Do you think thats do-able? I'm not sure. But I sure as hell am gonna try!
Any links to some good thinso or positive weight loss sites would be amazeballs right about now.
<3
Any links to some good thinso or positive weight loss sites would be amazeballs right about now.
<3
Saturday, 13 October 2012
update - modeling & acting
Thank you girls for your support. It's been quite hard for me in the last few weeks but I'm trying to control it as much as I can. Had a lot of stresses last week which wasn't good at all & because of these stresses I ended up eating everything! And I mean everything! I have gained like 4lbs. Not happy. Major restrictions start as of today.
I have a modeling audition to go to next month and I need to remember that every time I go to eat. I don't wanna go and be the fattest one there. That would be mega embarrassing.
Another bit of news for ya... I got the lead girl role in a local pantomime thats goin' on. Got a shit load of lines to learn and a couple of songs *cringe* At least my life will be more focused now.
I can't tell you how sorry I am that I haven't been on here much. I just needed to get my head sorted.
I hope you're all okay!?
Love Sirenne x x
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